Settling in for change

I have been feeling deeply reflective these days, and slower paced. I’ve been pondering the patterns I’ve created in my life and really looking into them to see what’s worked and what hasn’t; there is a lot to look at. It feels like an opportunity for growth and change, as if I am readying myself for a leap forward into unknown territory. Kinda unsettling, exciting, and a bit scary.

It’s been a few weeks now without my band and I am settling in to the new reality. In some ways I feel really free and unshackled. It’s amazing to consider a summer off, the first in four and a half years. But, I have to say I do miss the routine of songwriting and rehearsal. And I do miss my old band mates.

My new idea is to explore the idea of working with just one other musician as a duo. The more I think about it, the more I like it. You see, I always thought I needed a big band to be big myself. What I mean is, that I have a large voice and personality. I thought I needed all that sound and energy to fully inhabit myself on stage. And now I am now not sure that’s true. The idea of pairing down and still being able to fully inhabit myself is really intriguing to me, like a new way to test myself. I am looking forward to finding the right connection with the right guitarist. If you have any suggestions, I am open to them! In the meantime I am going to do a bit of song exploration with the amazing Jeff Pevar, and Charley Lanusse. I can’t wait to see what we come up with.

In more mundane matters, I have gotten some things done around the house – cleaned out all the closets, had a garage sale and planted my vegetable garden.

Jeff, my husband, and I leave next week for a trip to the Bay Area and then Florida.  I may also do a road trip this summer to check out the music scenes in LA, Portland, Austin and Nashville to see who’s out there and what they are doing.

Well, I gotta go do my daily hike and get my day going. Thanks for listening!

Annie xox

~ by anniemacmusic on April 24, 2009.

One Response to “Settling in for change”

  1. Hi!
    I came across your blog during a search for old friends, and turned up the name Charley Lanusse here.
    I am Rick Hebert and knew him what seemed like forever ago in Lafayette La. back in the COCO Club days.
    When you see Charlie, he probably wont remeber me, but tell him I said hi, and I still remember him, particularly Lyra MIDI adaptor for the COCO he created, (I bought one), the entheusiasm for computing, and the TRON poster in his bedroom.

    If he is so inclined he can reply to me at;

    in the meantime I will try to find some of your music to listen to!


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